Saturday, June 2, 2012
Ever been in a funk and you couldn't explain it? I try to be cheerful and upbeat all the time, but seriously, for the past month, I've mostly been mad. Just angry for no identifiable reason. Have you ever been there?
I don't know. Maybe it's not so much angry as agitated
Personally, things are decent in my life with only the normal aggravations. But, I've been so upset for other people I'm a strung out mess. The middle of this past week, I didn't have enough fingers on one hand to count the number of people close to me who were sick, really sick, and some of them with unexplained maladies that weren't going away. Serious things that really worried me. One of my favorite teachers from high school passed away. He was only 64 and he'd discovered a short three weeks before he had cancer. He didn't deserve to go that way. Heck, no one deserves to go that way. We were also shocked by one of my husband's friends getting arrested. It was so shocking because he was a great guy, awesome to be around. He appeared to be a model citizen. Not so much. What he did was really bad. Shocking. Really distressing. He destroyed his family by his actions. I just cried for his family and for him the other day. His consequences are tragic and, among other things, he's never going to see his kids again. I wish people would think. Really think.
I've just been in such pain for other people.
Literally, every day this week, I went to bed and stared at the ceiling for an hour before I finally got up and brainlessly played an off-version of Bejeweled on my iPad until I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. Anything mindless to keep me from thinking.
Maybe I shouldn't admit this here. Maybe I should keep everything upbeat and superficial. I don't know. I think sometimes it's best to just be real and to let you know you're not alone if you go through things like this, too.
Hugs to all of you. And hopefully back to the regularly scheduled cheer tomorrow.